UPDATE!

Hey everyone! It's been a while since I've updated.. ergg. So sorry, so sorry.
Hadley will be 10 months old in 9 days!! But, I couldn't wait that long to update so here we go!
(still planning on updating on her 10 month mark)
ANYWAY.

Hadley has been growing up entirely too fast,which, in turn.. gives me baby fever. Sometimes I want her to stay a baby forever! But don't worry ya'll.. still planning on waiting a little while till we have another one!

So Hadley has learned a few new tricks.
She has been "posing" for the camera! With weird, cute little faces...
example A:

example B:

example C:

And here she is making a face that looks like she is saying, "WHATEVER!" :

I have decided that I have the HAPPIEST baby on the face of this earth. She smiles SOO MUCH, and it fills my heart with soo much joy.. I can't get mad at her.. like really. Even if I start to have a bad day... she smiles with her cute little bottom teeth.. and it lights up the entire room. YES! I said it! She has 2 crooked little bottom teeth.. The bottom left one popped up and then the other one popped up not even 2 weeks later! Now she has her top left tooth cutting through. SO CUTE. No more gummy smile. sad.. but true.
So here she is.. giving a BEAUTIFULLY BIG SMILE!:

SEE! SO BEAUTIFUL!

These pictures were taken by my wonderful husband..with our new camera! Takes great photos yeah? LOVE THEM.

Okay.. now for the news on her sleeping.
UGH.
I have spoiled her. ROTTEN. She has been sleeping with us in our bed EVERY NIGHT. I get her to sleep and then I sneak her into her bed around 9-10.. then around 2 she wakes up.. and I bring her to bed with us. It's just easier that way.. but now I am not sleeping good..with all the tossing and turning from her and Tyler.. along with the damn TRAIN that goes by at 10pm.. 3am.. and 5am... CHOOCHOOING the WHOLE WHILE IT CHUGALUGS ON BY!!! UGh.. okay, you understand my frustration! It turns me into a BIG B! I CANNOT WAIT till we have our own place.. away from trains.. and motorcycles that start up at 6 AM.
SOOOO I don't even know where to go from here.. Well, I know what to do.. but tyler (who has to work 12 hrs a day and can't sleep through the crying from me trying to make her sleep in her own bed). So, UGH.
Yeah... then, she's up at 6-7 ready to party!
naps around 9-10
then naps around 3-4 sometimes even later.. like 5.
I know I need to fix this.. and soon.

She is still eating 3 meals a day.. with snacks in between.
I now have to give her prune juice pretty much every day.. because everything backs her up.. poor booboo.
but it's all good.. cause she LOVES the JUICE.

She has been standing up still.. but no taking steps.. yet...
I have a feeling it will be pretty soon though! I've been encouraging her as much as possible with it.. but she'd much rather jump around! haha my littly bunny. :)

Let's see... anything else?
AHH YES.. Tyler and I have our 1 year wedding anniversary this month on the 14th... We have a room in this VERY cute resort type place by Fredricksburg! I'm pretty nervous with leaving Hadley for the whole night. But.. this is definitely what I, and I'm sure, Tyler need.
Also.. Tyler will be 23 on the 20th! I remember when he was 14! haha.. such a cutie.

O.K.
Well.. need to get off the computer and get the day going.. I will leave you with oooonnnneee more picture! :)

And yes.. I took that picture^^

ADIOS!

NOW

This week I have been looking in the past. Thinking of what I could have done, should have done, or would have done.. if only... wishing that I could go back to the "good ole days", but only for a little while. You know, when life was "simple". But were those days really simple? No, no, I don't believe so.

So why is it that I care soo much about what people (old friends from the past) think of me? Am I really that unsure of myself? I'm pretty sure that I know where I stand in this life..so why do I let other people's  judgments stand in the way of my happiness?

I guess.. when it comes down to it.. you realize who your true friends are.
I just wish I had more.

but in the mean time.. I'm leaving the past behind.
...looking ahead.
if you want to be in my life.. then be in it.
if you miss me.. then don't tell me. just do something about it.


My new motto in life:
Live The Present
Create The Future
           &
Turn From The Past

peace&love.

New Year!

Soo I know that it is already January 10th, but I never got a chance to sayyyyy, "Happy New Year"! I can hardly believe it is the year 2012 already! It seems like it was just yesterday that I was pregnant with my sweet baby girl Hadley! Ahhh a new year... I wonder what will be in store for us! I will make sure that I put more effort into this blog, even though no one reads it. LOL. Oh well, more fun for me!

So one of Hadley's presents that Daddy and I got her was a walker! She is actually pretty good with it now. She just doesn't have much room to walk around in the RV.

We also went to Lubbock for Christmas to visit on my mom's side of the family. It was a great visit except for the fact that one of my family members had an accident and had to end up in surgery. We didn't really get to visit all that much.. but it was still great to see the family and the friends as much as we could!

We ended up getting a BADASS new camera from my mom and rick! We LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE IT!!! It's a Nikon D3100 ! Takes great shots and videos! I will be taking some great photos with it and will share with whoever even reads this (if anyone).

In other news... Hadley has FINALLY popped her first tooth! HOORAY! It happens to be on the bottom left. It's oh soo cute.. but LORD is it a pain in the ass when they are cutting!!!

While I'm on the topic, last night was HORRIBLE! I swear the child was possessed by the teething monster. She was screaming in brutal pain.. I gave her Orajel and teething tablets but nothing, and I mean NOTHING. was soothing her. I pretty much just nursed her until she fell asleep.. (which was a little over 2 hours of nursing) YIKES!! I will be happy once the rest of them come in so we can be over and done with this. And I'm sure Hadley feels the same. Poor booboo.

Another milestone Hadley has reached isssss standing up!!! She has become pretty damn good at it too! Although, she mainly only does it on the bed. I have been trying to motivate her on the floor with it but she is just not all that interested. She'd rather jump. haha. well.. here is a pic of her standing on the bed:

Yes it's sideways^^ get over itttt. :)
She spreads her legs out reeallll wide while she is standing up.. it's pretty cute! c: hehe.

Well.. I guess that is all. I will leave you all with a sweeeet picture I took on my phone yesterday after a long days play :)

                                                                             

Do you have the spirit?

play music below and then continue reading:



So here I am.. TRYING my hardest to get into the Christmas spirit!
I don't know if I am just not feeling it this year because there is no snow on the ground or because it has just barely become jacket weather.

I have been watching youtube channels on how people have been decorating their homes and making yummy Christmas goodies and now I some what wish that I had started out a bit earlier on making this Christmas a bit more decorative and fun considering it is Hadley's very first Christmas!

So here is what I have decided to do:
I will make Tyler, Hadley and I Christmas stockings and find great little goodies to stuff in them for our family!
And after this Christmas I will head over to Hobby Lobby and go apeshit buying Christmas decorations for next year! All of the decorations are much, much cheaper the day after Christmas... HOORAH!

But until then I will decorate my blog with a cute little Christmas layout!

Have I typed the word "Christmas" enough for you? :)

So here is a little update on what has been going on around the Hays house hold..
Hadley had gotten sick a couple of weeks ago.. Nothing too serious but she did have to be put on antibiotics for a sinus infection and the poor girl had a horrid fever! UGH! I cannot stand antibiotics. They gave her a horrible diaper rash and she was in such a bad mood for about a week. Thankfully, after the antibiotics had all been taken and a few days had passed, the rash disappeared, and I had my wonderful baby boo back! :)

Over the weekend we had Christmas at my Grandparents' house. Hadley had lots and lots of fun hanging out with her cousins and the rest of the family.

i was going to upload a video of her opening her 1st present but for some reason it wouldn't upload :(

but here she is playing pattycake!!:

I also had my 21st birthday! G and Papa babysat for us and we went out to the Buck Horn bar in Llano and got a hotel room right down the road for the night. Let's just say.. it was a long night.. I also was unable to get pictures because I couldn't figure out how to get this video camera to take pictures! UGH! and trust me you don't want to see the footage! :) haha

Yesterday  morning I woke up with a bit of mastitis.. it was sooo painful.. I had fever for a while but I did everything in my power to unclog the pipes and luckily it worked! No antibiotics for me! I still feel a slight pain but nothing compared to how it felt when I woke up. Daddy came home and gave me a wonderful back massage and I felt soo much better. Woke up this morning with no fever! Ahhhh lucked out on that one!

As for my last post about the formula feeding.. I had to stop because of the fact that Hadley got sick and I didn't want to put her through any stress while she was not feeling soo good in the first place. She seems to be all healed up now so I'm thinking about getting her on the bottle again. We shall see.

Well, I guess that is all! Leave me kind words people!

From Breast to Formula

LORD give me strength to be one with patience this morning..
I have been trying to transition Hadley from breast milk to formula... and let me tell you, today, it has been a challenge. Yesterday I dropped one bm feeding and replaced it with formula and she did fine! She drank 2 1/2 oz. and ate cereal. She then wanted to take a nap but the ONLY way she was doing it was if she had NeeNee (bm). soo I strapped her in her baby carrier and she whined a tiny bit and then fell asleep! (miracle). So this morning.. I had been up since about 4:30..off and on. I was EXHAUSTED, then I remembered!... AH yes! I can drink coffee and she can have her formula and by the time her bm feeding rolls around (lunch time) the coffee will have left my system... buutttttt NO. She was not having the formula this morning after she ate her cereal and I had drank 2.. count them.. 2! cups of coffee... NO BUENO. I drank about 2 bottles of water after that and kept trying to give Hadley the bottle.. but NOPE. UGH! sooo she kept screaming and I finally gave in and gave her the boob. Poor baby. I really do not want to push this on her too much and make her feel like I'm just being mean to her.. but I seriously and tired of breastfeeding. I know that there are those people out there that will give me hell for this.. and I used to care what others thought... but now I'm saying F**K IT! I can only breast feed for however long I feel that I can stand it.. and right now I feel like I am done!

So does anyone have tips on how I can make this transition a little bit easier on Hadley and myself?? I would greatly appreciate POSITIVE and informative feedback on this! please and thank you!

So on another note.. It's the 1st of December! YAAYY! Soo happy! I love December! Birthdays, Christmas, cold weather! ahhh couldn't ask for more!!

Hadley has now learned to hold her sippy cup up and drink from it on her own! sooo proud of my smart baby girl!

Where does the time go?!

7 months.

Hadley is now 7 MONTHS OLD! Oh mY GoOdNesS!  She has reached soo many great milestones:
waving byebye (she did this TODAY!)
crawling
standing up (with the..hardly any..  assistance of me and dada, or furniture)
saying dada, mama, baba (even though she rarely drinks for a bottle) ?
jumping ( MY GOSH THAT GIRL CAN JUMP!)
eating all different types of food!:
She absolutely LOVES peaches. They're her FAVE!


You know... when I first had Hadley people would tell me all of the time.."Enjoy her being that small.. they grow soooo fast." I always thought it was just one of those things that people just .. well.. said. haha
But, they were right! She has grown entirely too fast.. and I miss being able to just cuddle her up in my arms and watch her sleep soo soundly.

The love that I have for this little girl is far beyond what I what I ever could have imagined before I had her. This is truly the tightest bond that I have ever had with anyone and I really couldn't imagine my life without her.

I LOVE YOU HADLEY!!! xoxoxo

                                                                                                         



 
                                                                                                                     

SLUMP.

  So here is a couple of things that you (who ever is reading this..) have missed out on since I last blogged... Hadley is now saying "mama" :) and she is crawling!!! My baby girl is growing up sooooo fast! I cannot believe she is already 6 months old! That is crazy! I am sooo proud of her and love her more than I can even express!! ahhh soo anyway.. here are some pictures for your viewing delight!

waking up from her 30 min nap.

"how dare you take a picture of me!"

Ultra sound.. yawning..

summer 09

night before valentines day :)

      I'm sorry that it has been a while since I have blogged.. I was waiting for something interesting in my life to happen so that I could type about it.. but honestly.. I ended up with nothing. I will try my hardest not to be a negative nancy on this blog.. but... ahhhh screw it! Honesty is the best policy.. isn't it?!
    
     I have been in a HORRIBLE slump this past week.. mainly from being soo lonesome. There is nothing within a 20 mile radius from us besides more RVs.. and dirt... I have walked around trying to meet people.. but no one seems to interested in hanging out with a 20 year old stay at home mom.. and to be completely honest.. I'm not all that interested in hanging out with the people around here either! It's not that I am stuck up or anything.. I just can't seem to click with anyone.

    It would be great if I had some family that were close.. but I don't... so here I am... with Hadley. DON'T get me wrong.. I LOVE HADLEY! I absolutely adore her.. but I need that grown up talk. I need out of this RV.. I need something. I seriously almost broke down in tears yesterday... but I tried to keep myself busy with house chores and youtube. I know.. I'm pathetic...

    OKAY.. I'm done sulking now! Promise! I just had to get that off of my chest... Today should be a bit more exciting!! Why you ask? Welllllll.... we get to go grocery shopping! hahahah Most people would dread the thought... but I see it as an excuse to get out of the house and breath in some fresh air.. and remind myself that there is other stuff going on in the world besides staring at these same old walls!!